Ohhh, @joshuwaa

"Does anyone remember the first time they felt lust…?
I do, sometime when I was 15 or 16. I’d done sexual things before, fancied guys, but I’d never done anything with anyone I particularly wanted too… but I’d never felt the want, the need.
I remember it as clear as crystal, oddly. It was pretty lame tbh, I was having cyber sex with the boy I had crushed on for about a year. (which was forever back in those days.)
And it was the moment where it began, when the conversation got dirty, and you feel that heat, that has nothing to do with temperature. And I’d never been in a game of seduction before, as cheesy as that sounds. But before him, everything was always taken, or forced, never given.
And it was just that moment, where he began to get dirty on cam, asking what I wanted, letting me tell him what to do. I remember feeling dangerous when I never had before, that feeling, like your entire throat is closing while your body demands double it’s normally required oxygen.
Just feeling everything come alive at once, making your toes curl. Because It was what I wanted, and in that moment needed, the boy I’d been depraved of for so long, wanting him so much. Just being far more sated and satisfied than anything had made me before, just wanting so badly to get further with him, just wanting, so much."

It feels like this.