Untitled, for the moment.

Have you ever done something, and laid awake afterwards, and thought, "Now I am older." and really felt it?
I have never lusted for someone like it before. Upon meeting you, all I wanted was to be close to you, because I loved you already. All I wanted was to hold you, to kiss you. To breathe you in, and feel you.
I never really felt sex, physically, until it was with you. The only reason I had done it before was because it was to please someone else, or to feel wanted.
And then you kissed me, and I felt alive. The way you gently put your lips on mine and gently held me there.
I really, really felt. For the first time in a long time. Something.
My heat going faster than ever before, my shaking hands, the fire in between my thighs.
For hours upon hours, I waited for you, hinting at the bedroom.
And then, finally.
You ripped my clothes off, threw me down and kissed me everywhere. Such unintended violence, yet you were so careful with me. Your fingers ripping through me like it was for the first time. It hurt so much, it felt so good.
You made me feel things I had never felt before. No one has ever made me feel so... Wanted. In an undescribeable way.

This kind of raw emotion spills out of me in the dark, rarely to be seen.